Tag: fatigue

I am feeling empty
Hollow
I exist only as a shell of myself

I can feel the need to look for me
On Facebook, Instagram, in the eyes of another 
In writing this blog post

I have been here before
It is lonely and vacuous
And nothing I think, do, eat, or consume seems to touch it or fill me back up

So I rest
I lie down
I listen to my self-love playlist
I close the door and spend time with my shell
I breathe and watch my belly rise and fall
I smile because why not
And  know I will feel better through being kind to myself instead of running away and trying to find me on the outside

I want to blame others for how I feel
But I know how I am feeling is no one's fault
It is a simple signal to stop, breathe, be with myself and pull out of the endless cycle of doing and consuming more

With every breath I take today,
May I nourish, rejuvenate, and revitalize all parts of me
May the echoes of my self-care reach you, no matter where you are or how you feel
May we all turn inwards to find our peace and ourselves 
Big hugs and deep beautiful breaths to you

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