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To the many me’s who came before – a letter
Hey Bradlees! You are so very special and important to me. I am sitting outside as the sun is setting and I thought of writing you all a letter to let you know how awesome you are and have always been. You were such a sweet, innocent and excited child. Sensitive, easily overwhelmed and confused…
Keep readingFor days when my symptoms kick my ass
Well, sometimes my symptoms kick my ass. And today is one of those days. To be honest, the last few weeks have felt like this, I am just getting better at letting myself feel shitty instead of trying to overcome and fix everything I experience all the time. I am practicing being with myself when…
Keep readingI didn’t think boundaries could be loving
Like many sensitive people, I have been exploring the concept of boundaries. What does that word even mean, what do boundaries look like, when do I need them, is it okay to have them, when should I strengthen them, etc? I had this very innocent belief that if I had boundaries, then people would feel…
Keep readingHysteria – emotions, poetry and art
Befriending my emotions and welcoming them into my life is the more recent step I am taking in my healing journey. It’s taken me a lot of work, self-care, awareness, time and self-love to get here. I am so proud of how I’m building connections within myself. When I reach toward uncomfortable feelings and emotions, I…
Keep readingNothing wrong
It’s hard to describe just how much I’ve blamed myself for being unwell with chronic fatigue syndrome. And for how many years, I didn’t even believe I was sick, just that I was tired, and if I could just do the right things, then I wouldn’t be so tired. I’ve been on disability leave from…
Keep readingThinking of my emotions like they’re a “check engine” warning
Instead of getting all riled up by my feelings, like I was earlier today, I wondered if it would help me to think of them like a little “check engine” light. Nothing personal, nothing to fix, get over, analyze or heal from, but an indicator that some care is needed. If you’ve been reading my…
Keep readingHolding space instead of overcoming
Note to readers: this post includes descriptions of my inner pain, trauma and learning how to allow all of me to be here. Please read with care 💖. This morning I had a vision in my mind’s eye. I saw a paper with my inner narrative written on it, the one I formed while growing…
Keep readingGetting older
I am different lately. Turning 46 has been a big one for me. I am no longer a young person, I am closer to 50 than to 40, and I can tell that I view life differently than the youth I am around. My skin looks more wrinkly, my face looks older, and my body…
Keep readingLetting it all out through allowing
Sometimes I feel the emotional pressure building up inside me, and I feel this urge to flee the pressure and the feelings. Sometimes I distract myself. But sometimes, I am brave and I turn toward it, instead of trying to get rid of it. I have this pressure on the left side of my jaw…
Keep readingTrue Self Proclamation
How beautiful is that image! Gosh, I love it! I painted that about a year ago, when I had been processing some big emotions and then I felt so free, like I could say yes to life. I felt like I was falling deeper into life with my arms wide open and the love was…
Keep readingWhat it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome
It’s hard to explain just how exhausting it is to have chronic fatigue syndrome. It’s taken me years to really and truly understand that rest doesn’t cure this type of exhaustion. It is much deeper than a lack of rest. It is an exhaustion down to the cellular and soul levels. Before I get much…
Keep readingLooking up and ahead instead of down
At some point during the last several years, I started looking down when I walked to make sure I wouldn’t trip or fall. I have been very delicate and vulnerable mentally and physically so looking down makes sense, even though I have been far from an age where a fall would have been catastrophic. I…
Keep readingHolding space
Well, here I am. I really feel like writing, and celebrating the desire to write. I went for a cold, sunny sky walk with the dogs and I was filled with so much love and possibilities. I was given an opportunity to see the extent of the possibilities of my life in spite of my…
Keep readingTaking the pressure off
Honestly, have you ever seen a more relaxed dog? Archie is such a sweet cutie pie. I love this photo of him. It’s not the best photo of Robbin and I, but it sure showcases how relaxed, happy and at ease he is. Archie teaches me and reminds me to take the pressure off myself. …
Keep readingMy new true north
My inner compass has been re-oriented. My focus re-directed. My heart opened and filled with what’s been right in front of me all along. Here I am, right here, where I have always been. My life is not behind me, ahead of me or just around the corner. It is right here, right now. Every…
Keep readingIt all counts
No matter what your life experience has been or is today, it all counts. And it all matters. You matter. Even if you wish things could have been different or if you’ve just figured out something that has been impacting your whole life, you matter and it all counts as valid life experience. Your life…
Keep readingMoving towards discomfort
Moving towards the uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, emotions, pains and everything else inside of me is bold. It’s amazing. It’s the opposite of what I had done for so so many years, and it’s the opposite of what we’re encouraged to do in North America. For years now, I’ve learned various different approaches to my physical…
Keep readingReflecting on 2025
It’s the last day of 2025 for me, and I can’t help but think, “wow, this is the last time I’m going to eat lunch in 2025,” and “this is my last day in 2025, I’d love to make sure I enjoy the little moments.” Transitioning to a new year feels like a big deal…
Keep readingFor all the times I wanted to say no but couldn’t
Flames make me feel powerful and like I have a choice. I have so much power buried within me, because for so long I couldn’t use my voice and power. If I did, I was unsafe, so I learned to keep it down as a coping strategy. The more I learn about trauma and how…
Keep readingBuilding up my inner resources
In the last year, I have been learning the concept of “resourcing.” The way I understand it, resourcing is a way of building up your inner resources of reserves through doing things that nourish you and replenish you. I started really delving into making resourcing art after I started working with an incredibly wonderful and…
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