Hysteria – emotions, poetry and art

Befriending my emotions and welcoming them into my life is the more recent step I am taking in my healing journey.  It’s taken me a lot of work, self-care, awareness, time and self-love to get here.  I am so proud of how I’m building connections within myself. 

When I reach toward uncomfortable feelings and emotions, I feel a bit scared.  These are often super strong emotions that I have done my best, as a coping strategy, to keep separate and shoved down. 

Creating art to hold my big feelings and the ones that were difficult to even admit to, let alone feel, has been a blessing for me.  It’s been so critical for me in building the capacity to be a witness to myself, my feelings and experiences. Having my feelings contained on a piece of paper has also helped me increase my strength and resilience.  Art has helped me build bridges within myself and helped me to start healing from how much I pushed myself to keep going and working even though I was so sick.  It’s also helping me build trust and greater respect for myself and within myself.

And so, I am sharing my latest art piece and poem that are a part of my “allowing my feelings” journey.  I sat with my feelings and told them they were allowed to stay and that I would love to understand them, but no pressure. I learned from primaltrust.org that I could visualize my feelings as art as I allow them, and this piece below is what I saw and felt.  A maelstrom of hysteria, surrounded by my light, holding, witnessing and allowing it to whirl, spin and share its messages with me.  I used a typewriter to type out the words I heard within the storm and I inadvertently typed them out in the shape of a tornado.

It’s been very healing to make this art, and to write this post about my feelings.  My hope is that the strength of that inner storm will lessen as I hold space for it and start to understand its needs.

Thank you for reading my posts and for journeying with me as I work towards being the kindest and most compassionate expert in being me.  Maybe one day I will get my PhD in Being Me 🥰🥰.

Take care, Bradlee

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