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Building up my inner resources
In the last year, I have been learning the concept of “resourcing.” The way I understand it, resourcing is a way of building up your inner resources of reserves through doing things that nourish you and replenish you. I started really delving into making resourcing art after I started working with an incredibly wonderful and…
Keep readingWriting for expression
I have recently learned about the value of writing out the tough feelings I have, without limits or censoring, and then ripping it up. I was a bit skeptical at first, but there is something so freeing about writing with no limits until my hand hurts, and feeling all the emotion pouring out onto the…
Keep readingI am here, and I am with myself
I am here, and I am with myself 💕. I feel so soothed whenever I say to myself, “I am here and I am with you.” Sometimes, I even cry, like a part of me has just really needed to hear that, and it allows any stuck emotions or stress to release and flow. I am…
Keep readingThis is my life
I’m 45 years old, nearly 46, and lately I’ve been thinking about how this is my life, right now, as I’m living it. Have you ever thought that? Like you notice that life is happening while you are living it and maybe you’ve not been enjoying it or fully present in it? Or perhaps not…
Keep readingSpace for everyone
Sometimes I catch myself blaming someone for how I feel. Then I realize, maybe there is enough space for me and that other person to both be having a hard time. I think, “maybe it doesn’t have to be all or nothing,” or “you versus me.” I’ve been experimenting with the idea that life is…
Keep readingBoundaries
I am exploring boundaries in therapy and in my daily life. I have heard about boundaries a lot over the years, but hadn’t done a big exploration of what they are and aren’t in my life, why I need them and how they can help. So far, I have identified what it feels like when:…
Keep readingOversharing?
Last week, I was buying some dog treats from a local boutique pet shop. They are so friendly and they have a great variety of unique treats. I was having a nice exchange with the two people at the cash and one of them said they often overshare and that they’d stop talking now. I…
Keep readingNeeding translation
Through art therapy, I’ve been learning how to translate my feelings into art. Doing this makes them much less scary, and more understandable. It’s also helped me feel more compassion for myself. Today, I felt, saw and located a certain emotion in my body. It was very intense and one I have suppressed for a…
Keep readingFeeling connected
Last week, I felt deeply connected to humanity, the planet, and life itself. I could sense the web of connectedness that links us all together, no matter where we live, and it was profound. I hadn’t felt that connection in quite some time. I remember feeling like that quite often for a few years, and…
Keep readingEach breath
Lately, I have been wondering more about the purpose of life. The longer I live, 45 years so far, the more I think it is about breathing each breath, being there, as a companion for myself, while I live my life. I have lived through so many moments when I have felt desperately alone or…
Keep readingBeing here
If you’ve visited my blog before, you may know that I’m working on getting a PhD in Being Me. What does getting a PhD in Being Me mean these days while I am off work to take care of my physical and mental health? It means: May this post inspire you to give yourself a…
Keep readingBeing nourished by my own voice
It’s been several months since I have written on my blog. I’ve been having a tough time and have needed (and continue to need) deep quiet time. Just this week, I remembered how nourishing it is for me to read my own words. I was feeling the nudge to write again, which I haven’t felt…
Keep readingDelicate
Feeling like I am on thin ice Unsure which move I can safely make Will the decision I make leave me drained, emotionally and physically Or will it fill up my heart’s cup enough to offset the fatigue that will surely come? This delicate balancing act of trying to conserve my limited energy while still…
Keep readingThe potato turning point
I have a beautiful life. I have the best family, a safe and cozy home, wonderful friends, and many other incredible blessings. At the same time, I am exhausted. I am also mentally exhausted from having chronic fatigue syndrome for several years and from trying to make it all work with such limited energy. I…
Keep readingWhat If?
What if? I asked myself that question this morning. What if it’s okay to struggle? What if it’s okay to have chronic fatigue syndrome that can be deeply debilitating? What if it’s okay that I have been having a hard time these last several years? After all, what am I other than a human being,…
Keep readingChanging Expectations
Well, it’s nearly the end of 2024, and I have deep thoughts to share as the year comes to a close. I grew up at a time where success in life looked a certain way, and I recently realized how much I was holding myself to those societal expectations. As a person with a disability,…
Keep readingReflections
It is easy to not feel good sometimes. It is easy to amass all kinds of evidence about my shortcomings, failures and deficiencies. It is much harder, sometimes, to focus on all that is going well and all the good I bring to the world. A few weeks ago, I was sitting by the creek…
Keep readingA pause
The older I have gotten (I am 44), the more I am giving myself permission to pause. A pause can mean many things, including: Am I an expert at pausing? Sometimes, and sometimes I rush and feel so much pressure that a pause is the last thing I think about. Learning about me from my…
Keep readingWitnessing myself
Sometimes I feel lonely. Sometimes I feel like I wish I could be seen more deeply and completely. Sometimes I feel so tired it’s hard to do much. Sometimes I feel like my being is surrounded by mist and I need the sun to rise more to transform it. Today feels joyous and celebratory, but…
Keep readingInspiration
I find it important lately to find inspiration from all possible sources. I have been worn down by circumstances in my life, and I have felt how dysregulated my nervous system is and how truly exhausted I have been in all aspects of my being. I have taken several months off work to take better…
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