On Saturday, I had the absolute pleasure to attend a drag show in Kemptville that was put on by North Grenville Pride. I almost didn’t go…I was so tired last week and I was feeling much more anxious than usual. I had pretty much already decided not to go, but then a whisper within me that suggested otherwise. I’ll explain.
On that morning, I set an intention to make the decisions that were in my highest and best good. I totally expected that to mean resting, reading and taking it slow and keeping it simple. I went for a walk with Maggie, our doggie, and that is when I heard it: the perspective that it could be helpful for me to have a new experience, one with dancing, performing, good music and lots of people.
Before I had chronic fatigue, that would have been an opportunity I was excited for, but since being so tired, I have to choose how to spend my time very wisely. Crowds, lots of stimulation, and loud music are all things I stay away from now because they drain my energy big time. I was intrigued by the new perspective that came to me that morning. I decided to be open to the possibility that it could actually help me instead of drain/harm me.
I planned with my teenager to only spend a few hours there instead of staying to the end, and our friend got there earlier and saved us seats. I was very pleased that I was doing what I needed to go the show and honour myself and my needs.
I have never been to a drag show before, but I will definitely go again. I loved their outfits, make-up, performances and awesome dance moves. I was so uplifted, energized and inspired during their numbers. I was tired from smiling and cheering so much, it was super awesome. Their performances brought to a part of me to life that is dormant most of the time, and I am incredibly grateful for that. I’ve been dancing around the house so much more and feeling more like all of myself, not just the tired version of myself.
My greatest wish out of this experience is to embody more of my awesome self, no matter how tired I am. Now that I’ve reconnected with more of my passion and enthusiasm, I’m not in a hurry to say goodbye to it! If you’re struggling with any chronic physical or mental health condition, I send you a big hug. It isn’t easy to live with a chronic condition, but it is easy to forgot how whole we are when we feel bad a lot of the time.
May we all be blessed to discover what bring us joy and a sense of passion and purpose no matter where we find it. May we all be open to the opportunities and experiences that are in our highest and best good. Thank you NG Pride for such a fabulous event and thank you to the Not a Phase – Leeds and Grenville group for coordinating ticket purchases!
Big hugs!
Bradlee
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