Last week, I felt deeply connected to humanity, the planet, and life itself. I could sense the web of connectedness that links us all together, no matter where we live, and it was profound.
I hadn’t felt that connection in quite some time. I remember feeling like that quite often for a few years, and it gave my life a magical and spiritual dimension that I have deeply missed. The more tired I got, the harder it was to access that connection within and around me. So much so, that I have felt like I have been missing an important element of my life.
But then, I was at the grocery store, and I could feel my inner light expanding. I had a beautiful and fun exchange with an employee, and I felt my sense of connectedness grow. I smiled at the people shopping and working, and I rejoiced at the return of this important part of me and my life. The part that knows I am okay no matter what and that I have lots to share despite having chronic fatigue syndrome.
What amazes me is I reconnected to that part of me through the work I am doing to heal trauma and my nervous system. I have been learning to call forward the qualities of my deepest self, so I can be a balm to my own wounds, and so I can build trust within myself. The best part is that I can feel it working. I still get pulled in extreme directions when triggered, but I am learning to be my own safe space. I imagine that it will get easier to calm, nurture and support myself as I go on.
My greatest desire is to be able to put a hand on my heart, reassure myself, bring myself back to the present, and feel integrated, healed and whole. I am excited to be able to smile more as I remember the depth of who I am and all I am capable of, and to honour the growth that has come from all that I have survived.
Thank you to all the people in my life who love me and encourage me, and who remind me how special I am and I am worthy of compassion from myself and others. I am so grateful for all of you, Robbin, Vale, David 1, Georgette, Carla, Susan, Sonia, Tanya, Jenny, Sandie, David 2, Katie, Patricia, Megan, Nadine, Daniel 1, Tamara, Darren, Katy, Eugene, Raye, Lisa, Romeo, Venezia, Teegan, Greysen, Jen, Markes, Daniel 2, Natalie, Jana, Gavin, Nancy, Mike, Andrea, Danielle, Kat, Taranum.
There are others, but each of those special folks has taught me how worthy I am to take time to heal, to be my excellent self, and that it’s okay to be exactly as I am.
May everyone reading be blessed with caring and wonderful people in their lives too. And may we all feel how truly connected we all are. Big hugs,
Bradlee 💕💕🌸🌸
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