It is easy to not feel good sometimes. It is easy to amass all kinds of evidence about my shortcomings, failures and deficiencies. It is much harder, sometimes, to focus on all that is going well and all the good I bring to the world.
A few weeks ago, I was sitting by the creek where I live, and I was feeling down. It took me a few minutes to be still within myself, to even notice my surroundings. I felt how restless I was and decided to look at the water as a way of soothing myself. That was when I noticed how beautiful the sky looked reflected in the water.
I started looking up and down the creek to see the reflections.
No matter where I looked, it was so beautiful, clear and inspiring. I really started to consider how I could apply that perspective to my life. Yes, I was feeling down, no doubt about it, but those reflections gave me the courage to acknowledge what was good in my life, all while being kind to myself and respecting how I was feeling.
And so today, I am here, feeling grateful for my life, and the opportunity I have to notice my feelings and to write about them in this way. I am grateful that I am learning more about shame, and how worthless I feel sometimes, especially when I think I have failed in some way. I am grateful to have the word shame to help me understand what I have felt all these years. I am grateful for all the resources that are available to me to help me understand and care for myself even better. I am grateful for my breath and my body for helping me be more grounded when I am feeling unsafe or unworthy. I am grateful for the chance to smile at someone so we can share our humanity and connect, even just in passing. I am grateful for nature for inspiring me to have more compassion for myself.
When you look in the mirror today, may it reflect all the goodness you have within you so clearly. When you breath in and out today, may you feel safe, grounded and wholly accepted by yourself. When you think today, may your thoughts be filled with so much love and compassion for yourself.
Life can be tricky, hard, and unfair, and to balance that out a bit, may we all see reflections of our goodness, worthiness, and love everywhere we look.
With love, Bradlee ♥️
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Thank you Bradlee for sharing your heart, soul and love. Truly feeling blessed reflecting on your msg. I have been struggling with past trauma triggers that has left me feeling uneasy with self doubt. Your beautiful light of reflection expressed with images lifted my heart. Feeling safe and accepted as a small dimmer of light enlighten. Reminding myself to provide self care and compassion.Love you lots xo
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Hi beautiful Carla, thank you for reading, commenting and taking my reflections in to your heart. I wrote this morning as a way to make myself feel more witnessed, cared for and uplifted, may it do the same for you, my precious friend. May your struggles be held and honoured with every breath you take and may the gorgeous light of your soul be a balm for your pain. I love you so much xoxoxo
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