Sitting with disappointment
Here I am.
Disappointed.
I know disappointment is a part of life.
I know that others will disappoint me
And I will disappoint them.
It doesn’t make it any easier when I’m feeling disappointed though.
So here I am.
Disappointed and writing about it.
Writing about it helps me to be with my disappointment.
To keep it company and to let it know
That it is completely valid and allowed to be here.
It also allows me to acknowledge that I am a human,
And those who have brought on these feelings are human too.
And with that, the sting of the disappointment lessens.
We all do what we can and if it creates disappointment for us or others
Then, maybe that’s okay.
Maybe what’s really needed is to learn how to be with these uncomfortable feelings,
With the “what if,” or “maybe this is why,” and the “only ifs.”
To all of those who I have hurt, shamed, disappointed or angered, I am truly sorry.
For you, and for me, I will sit with this disappointment and hold myself.
I will honour my feelings and know that a caring smile directed towards my heart can help.
A deep breath into my belly can help.
Writing can help.
And so can keeping myself company and loving each emotion as it arises.
May you be well.
© Bradlee Zrudlo 2022-2024. All Rights Reserved
PhD in Being Me 
Thank you Bradlee for sharing your feelings and heart. Discomfort has been a difficult struggling on my path towards healing. Embracing in the feeling is a continuous effort I try my best sit in it. Often find hard on myself to give myself grace and compassion when I fall off balance. Your light and love warms my heart through my journey. Love you Carla xo
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Thanks for sharing Carla ♥️. I too find it hard to give myself grace and compassion. It can be much easier and tempting to just shove down tough feelings or just keep busy or worst of all, try to convince myself my feelings are no big deal. With every feeling you have, may you be blessed with so much peace, love, healing and more love.
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