Sitting with disappointment – a poem

Sitting with disappointment

Here I am.
Disappointed.

I know disappointment is a part of life.
I know that others will disappoint me
And I will disappoint them.
It doesn’t make it any easier when I’m feeling disappointed though.

So here I am.
Disappointed and writing about it.
Writing about it helps me to be with my disappointment.
To keep it company and to let it know
That it is completely valid and allowed to be here.
It also allows me to acknowledge that I am a human,
And those who have brought on these feelings are human too.

And with that, the sting of the disappointment lessens.
We all do what we can and if it creates disappointment for us or others
Then, maybe that’s okay.
Maybe what’s really needed is to learn how to be with these uncomfortable feelings,
With the “what if,” or “maybe this is why,” and the “only ifs.”

To all of those who I have hurt, shamed, disappointed or angered, I am truly sorry.
For you, and for me, I will sit with this disappointment and hold myself.
I will honour my feelings and know that a caring smile directed towards my heart can help.
A deep breath into my belly can help.
Writing can help.
And so can keeping myself company and loving each emotion as it arises.

May you be well.

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