To Be Human

To be human.

What is it really?

Is it to be perfect, to have everything organized and controlled?

Or it is about acknowledging that life gets messy and choosing gratitude anyway?

Is it about having everything society tells me I should have?

Or is it about making the best with what I’ve got and dreaming big anyway?

Is it about doing what everyone else is doing and what they expect of me?

Or it is about following my intuition and my heart’s song regardless of how others choose to live their lives?

The older I get, the less I want to be any way other than exactly how I am.

Even when I don’t always like how I am.

I don’t always like having chronic fatigue syndrome and having to budget my energy and my time. I don’t like having to decline so many lovely invitations from people I care about.

I don’t always like how sensitive and anxious I am, especially when I get tired, which is often.

I don’t always like having to work because it uses so much of my energy and so little of my heart’s desires.

But I do like everything these aspects of my life have taught me.

To own who I am, from the inside out.

To know that I have tremendous worth even if I am super tired most days. My fatigue has taught me how to love and accept myself in ways I never dreamed possible. It inspired the idea of getting a Phd in Being Me, and made me want to share everything I’ve learned and continue to learn with others.

To know that I am worthy of love and nurturing when I am sensitive and anxious, instead of just wishing I was “stronger”. My sensitivity is my greatest gift and what allows me to write these posts and dream of becoming a motivational speaker and self-help author.

To know that I can let my heart sing at a job I only like, not love, because its song is so beautiful and it nurtures me. My job and its environment have inspired to live my life as authentically as possible, and to rest and care for myself when my environment tries to stifle my heart’s song.

To be human.

A lovely, caring, intelligent, dedicated, compassionate, empathic, tired, anxious, sensitive, easily stressed human.

I’ll take it and I’m choosing to make the best of my life. May we all be blessed with empowerment, inspiration, prosperity and abundance to live our best lives and inspire others as we do it, no matter how messy or imperfect our lives or we may be.

With so much love,

Bradlee

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