So Beautiful
This dance of pain, exhaustion, joy and love
Is so so beautiful
How could I trade the way I am and the ways I experience life
When it leads to such depth of feeling?
The love I feel in my heart for humanity this morning is so precious
So all encompassing, pure and full of tenderness
And yet the exhaustion I feel is so painful, difficult and heart wrenching
All of it is so beautiful
Only because of the depth of my experiences can there be such beauty
Such connection with my cells that I feel their fatigue and exhaustion
Such openness to and awareness of the love that I am, that we all are
Smile dear one, everything is just as it needs to be
You don’t need to change or fix yourself or others
Breathe deeply
And again
And again
There you go. Put your hand on your heart.
You are so loved and you are love, no matter how messy, painful, difficult or impossible life is.
No more comparing to others, no more self-blame, judgement or hate.
You are so so so beautiful, just as you are.
A note from me: whether you’re struggling with chronic fatigue syndrome like me, or any other mental or physical health challenges, I see you. May this poem uplift and validate you, and may you be blessed with so much love.
I chose a photo of a double rainbow from a few weeks ago for this post. It is miraculous and spectacular but it is against a cloudy sky. That same contrast is what helps us feel the highs of life, and the lows. Without the cloudy sky, I may not have noticed that there were two rainbows outside instead of two. May you receive be aware of and receive the gifts in all of your highs and lows.
Big hugs, Bradlee
© Bradlee Zrudlo 2024. All Rights Reserved.
PhD in Being Me 
Thank you so much. This is very helpful . Wishing you much good health and ease!
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I wish you all the same and more 💕
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Hi Bradley
Beautiful thoughts. I’m curious how were you diagnosed with chronic fatigue? I struggle with extreme fatigue and wonder if it is CFS.
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Hi Moongirl,
Thanks so much for reading and commenting. I wish you so well, living with extreme fatigue is exhausting and difficult. I was seeing my doctor a few years ago about my fatigue. We did bloodwork and some scans to examine if there was anything physical causing the fatigue. I have been taking iron for years. When I was still super tired several months later, my doctor diagnosed me with chronic fatigue syndrome.
I found this description of CFS super helpful for me and it validated my experience big time: https://askjan.org/disabilities/Myalgic-Encephalomyelitis-Chronic-Fatigue-Syndrome.cfm.
May it be helpful for you too and I send you many blessings of healing and rejuvenation.
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Hi Bradlee, Thank you for this inspiring poem, so beautiful!
This paragraph made my day and weekend, really empowering!
“Smile dear one, everything is just as it needs to beYou don’t need to change or fix yourself or othersBreathe deeply”
Thank you for being YOU and sharing with us!
Lots of love, Georgette xxx
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read the poem and comment Georgette! I love reading your comments and reflections! I love that part of the poem too, it’s like the wisest part of me wrote that, to soothe and guide me and others 💕. I needed that reminder today! I appreciate and love you lots!
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Thank you Bradlee for sharing your beautiful poem So beautiful. It truly resonated within my heart. Life can be messy and overwhelming with the highs and lows. Proclaiming and voicing often gives me a release of the heavy emotional weight we can carrry. This poem truly validated and was uplifting. Continue to shine your love and light. Love you Carla
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Thank you so much Carla! I love receiving and reading your comments. I hear you on the heavy emotional weight! Writing and voicing what I feel really helps me too and it makes me so happy that my words validate and uplift you. I love you so much Carla, just thinking of you makes me feel lighter 💕 💗. Xoxoxo
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