So Beautiful
This dance of pain, exhaustion, joy and love
Is so so beautiful
How could I trade the way I am and the ways I experience life
When it leads to such depth of feeling?
The love I feel in my heart for humanity this morning is so precious
So all encompassing, pure and full of tenderness
And yet the exhaustion I feel is so painful, difficult and heart wrenching
All of it is so beautiful
Only because of the depth of my experiences can there be such beauty
Such connection with my cells that I feel their fatigue and exhaustion
Such openness to and awareness of the love that I am, that we all are
Smile dear one, everything is just as it needs to be
You don’t need to change or fix yourself or others
Breathe deeply
And again
And again
There you go. Put your hand on your heart.
You are so loved and you are love, no matter how messy, painful, difficult or impossible life is.
No more comparing to others, no more self-blame, judgement or hate.
You are so so so beautiful, just as you are.
A note from me: whether you’re struggling with chronic fatigue syndrome like me, or any other mental or physical health challenges, I see you. May this poem uplift and validate you, and may you be blessed with so much love.
I chose a photo of a double rainbow from a few weeks ago for this post. It is miraculous and spectacular but it is against a cloudy sky. That same contrast is what helps us feel the highs of life, and the lows. Without the cloudy sky, I may not have noticed that there were two rainbows outside instead of two. May you receive be aware of and receive the gifts in all of your highs and lows.
Big hugs, Bradlee
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