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An empty shell – a poem

Written by

Bradlee Zrudlo

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I am feeling empty
Hollow
I exist only as a shell of myself

I can feel the need to look for me
On Facebook, Instagram, in the eyes of another 
In writing this blog post

I have been here before
It is lonely and vacuous
And nothing I think, do, eat, or consume seems to touch it or fill me back up

So I rest
I lie down
I listen to my self-love playlist
I close the door and spend time with my shell
I breathe and watch my belly rise and fall
I smile because why not
And  know I will feel better through being kind to myself instead of running away and trying to find me on the outside

I want to blame others for how I feel
But I know how I am feeling is no one's fault
It is a simple signal to stop, breathe, be with myself and pull out of the endless cycle of doing and consuming more

With every breath I take today,
May I nourish, rejuvenate, and revitalize all parts of me
May the echoes of my self-care reach you, no matter where you are or how you feel
May we all turn inwards to find our peace and ourselves 
Big hugs and deep beautiful breaths to you
A short video from my resting self to you!

© Bradlee Zrudlo 2023. All Rights Reserved.

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2 responses to “An empty shell – a poem”

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    Carla Chambers

    Thank you Bradlee for sharing your loving heart. Days a feel like an empty shell it can be overwhelming 9f emotions. Loneliness, sadness are some of the emotions I feel at times in my shell. Finding the strength and the courage can often feel daunting. Learning to nuture my heart with self care and not being too hard on myself. Days of rest are important listening to my body when feeling tired and weak. Sending peace and love always. Carla xo

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      Bradlee Zrudlo

      Hi Carla! Thank you for sharing your experience with me too. I think it’s so important to acknowledge that these days are a part of life, and that we can do a lot to love, honor and nurture ourselves. And give ourselves permission to rest and feel our feelings. I wish you so much peace for your tough days my sweet friend! Xoxoxo

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