Reaching in, reaching out I see an image of me reaching in. Reaching inwards to the depths of my being, reaching to find myself. I feel myself stirring, awakening and stretching. I hear the giant yawn that slowly turns into a growl, then grows louder And louder Until it roars with the joy of itsContinue reading “Reaching in, Reaching out”
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Shedding more than just my skin
Today, I feel like I am a snake who is getting ready to shed my skin. Except that I I don’t want to just shed my skin, I want to shed more. I want to shed my old, victim like ways. I want to shed this safe resting place that I have taken shelter andContinue reading “Shedding more than just my skin”
Shutting down
I shut down sometimes. Sometimes I shut others out. Sometimes it feels like I’m shutting myself out. Shutting down. Is it a healthy coping mechanism? No, I don’t really think so. Is it okay that I do it? Ya, I think so. Sometimes my computer just gets that loading circle right when I’m in theContinue reading “Shutting down”
Emergence
I wrote this poem in 2016 or so. It is very special to me, as it very beautifully describes how I learned to turn around within myself to find me. No preamble or explanation can really set the stage better than the poem itself. May it inspire you to further emergence of your most wonderfulContinue reading “Emergence”
Always blooming
I’ve been sick the past few days and it has helped put things in perspective. Even when I am sick or struggling with the symptoms of chronic fatigue syndrome and anxiety, I am always blooming. Even when I feel like I am taking several steps back, I am always blooming. It’s so easy to getContinue reading “Always blooming”
From Anxiety to Empowerment
I am sensitive, easily stressed and anxious. I am also growing and learning and finding new ways to care for the wonderfully sensitive person I am. As I reflect back on my life, I see how many times I didn’t know I had options. I would just be anxious and sit in that for aContinue reading “From Anxiety to Empowerment”
Going to war with myself
In this self-care, self-love journey, I have noticed that there are times when I am going to war with myself. It was an important but sad realization. How many of us have improved our relationships with ourselves, friends and family and the world, but are still fighting on the inside? My hope is that withContinue reading “Going to war with myself”
Ambassadors
From 2015 to 2018, I was so deeply inspired by the massive spiritual and personal growth I was going through. I would often just be making a meal, sitting, or working and then I would be filled with some words that I just had to type out very quickly. As I understand it now, theContinue reading “Ambassadors”
How I Feel is Nobody’s Fault
For as long as I can remember, I haven’t taken responsibility for how I feel. I have blamed or resented other people, thinking it was their fault I was mad, sad, disempowered, or overwhelmed. I have related to life as a victim for a very long time. I even remember writing in my diary inContinue reading “How I Feel is Nobody’s Fault”
False Perfection
I wrote this poem in 2017. It was when I knew that I could be kinder to myself and I was experimenting with how to do so. I remember just feeling so constrained and wondering what I was trying to measure up to and why. I like the strain in this poem and the dawningContinue reading “False Perfection”
PhD in Being Me 