When I write Sometimes, when I write, the wisest and steadiest parts of me have something to shareAnd it uplifts and inspires me. Other times, the most traumatized and fractured parts of meHave something to sayAnd it’s painfulDifficultAnd hardBut what they share is no less wise.In fact, those feelings help me learn how to moreContinue reading “When I write – a poem”
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The burden I carry
I have become more aware of the emotional wounds I have lately. Over the last several years, I have often felt very heavy, tired and weighed down. It’s like I am carrying a heavy load that is made up of all the past hurts and traumatic events in my life. Some days, I don’t evenContinue reading “The burden I carry”
Getting caught up
As an empath, it is easy for me to get caught up in the feelings someone brings to their interactions with me. Recently, I have been temporarily overwhelmed by the intensity of what I am feeling, and it’s like I am stuck in a maze of those feelings. Sometimes for hours, or even a dayContinue reading “Getting caught up”
Phases of life: micro versus macro
I am working towards getting a PhD in Being Me, and that means learning about myself, noticing what I am feeling, and adjusting as necessary. Lately, I have really started to understand that I go through phases where I have a micro or a macro focus. I used some images above to try to illustrateContinue reading “Phases of life: micro versus macro”
Protecting innocence
A few weeks ago, I wrote about the death of one of our 2 day old baby chicks: https://phdinbeingme.ca/2023/06/02/making-peace-with-suffering/ It really broke my heart to watch her suffering, yet I knew she was teaching me alot. In the video above, I talk about the baby chicks and how they exude innocence and purity. They lookContinue reading “Protecting innocence”
Reaching in, Reaching out
Reaching in, reaching out I see an image of me reaching in. Reaching inwards to the depths of my being, reaching to find myself. I feel myself stirring, awakening and stretching. I hear the giant yawn that slowly turns into a growl, then grows louder And louder Until it roars with the joy of itsContinue reading “Reaching in, Reaching out”
How I Feel is Nobody’s Fault
For as long as I can remember, I haven’t taken responsibility for how I feel. I have blamed or resented other people, thinking it was their fault I was mad, sad, disempowered, or overwhelmed. I have related to life as a victim for a very long time. I even remember writing in my diary inContinue reading “How I Feel is Nobody’s Fault”
False Perfection
I wrote this poem in 2017. It was when I knew that I could be kinder to myself and I was experimenting with how to do so. I remember just feeling so constrained and wondering what I was trying to measure up to and why. I like the strain in this poem and the dawningContinue reading “False Perfection”
Overwhelmed and angry
I have really been enjoying feeling angry in the last month. I have a complicated relationship with anger…I used to shove it down….I used to be scared of what I would do if I got angry, so I wouldn’t let myself even feel it. The problem is that it was fermenting and boiling inside ofContinue reading “Overwhelmed and angry”
The process of maturing
Lately I have been feeling like I am in a process. I also realized that I am not always kind to myself as I go through this process. I don’t think cheese sitting on a shelf to age and become more flavorful judges itself. I also don’t think that little seedlings are hard on themselvesContinue reading “The process of maturing”
PhD in Being Me 