Being here

If you’ve visited my blog before, you may know that I’m working on getting a PhD in Being Me.  What does getting a PhD in Being Me mean these days while I am off work to take care of my physical and mental health?  It means: May this post inspire you to give yourself aContinue reading “Being here”

What If?

What if? I asked myself that question this morning.  What if it’s okay to struggle?  What if it’s okay to have chronic fatigue syndrome that can be deeply debilitating?  What if it’s okay that I have been having a hard time these last several years? After all, what am I other than a human being,Continue reading “What If?”

A pause

The older I have gotten (I am 44), the more I am giving myself permission to pause.  A pause can mean many things, including: Am I an expert at pausing?  Sometimes, and sometimes I rush and feel so much pressure that a pause is the last thing I think about.  Learning about me from myContinue reading “A pause”

Witnessing myself

Sometimes I feel lonely. Sometimes I feel like I wish I could be seen more deeply and completely. Sometimes I feel so tired it’s hard to do much. Sometimes I feel like my being is surrounded by mist and I need the sun to rise more to transform it. Today feels joyous and celebratory, butContinue reading “Witnessing myself”

Reconnecting to myself

Sometimes I hear my voice inside me and it’s loud and clear. Other times it’s like there is so much noise from the world that is making it harder to know who I am and where I stand. Today, I went for a walk in the woods and I heard the noise. I felt theContinue reading “Reconnecting to myself”

Helping others and myself

I really like helping others.  I also really like helping myself and giving myself care, compassion, and gentleness.  Life has felt hard lately, probably because it has been really tough.  When times are like that, I feel myself rising to the challenge and other times, I feel myself getting smaller and in need of timeContinue reading “Helping others and myself”

Overwhelmed by my own needs

Yesterday I heard the title of this post inside of me, and I silently agreed with it.  It is a sad thing to be overwhelmed by my own needs, so I did the following things: It felt great to take some pressure off of myself and to settle more deeply into being me, just asContinue reading “Overwhelmed by my own needs”

Deeper

Deeper – A self-care poem Sometimes I catch myself trying to accomplish something when I’m feelinglostsadconfused oroverwhelmed. Most of the time, the temporary high I get from accomplishing something is very fleeting andleads me to want to accomplish something else. I honestly had no idea that I was running away from myself when I wasContinue reading “Deeper”