How many times in life do we end up treating ourselves badly? Berating ourselves or beating ourselves up emotionally? How many times have we experienced micro-aggressions from others and from our own selves? Today, I learned a new term in my workplace’s course on Harassment and Violence in the Work Place. It really made meContinue reading “Giving myself micro-affirmations”
Author Archives: Bradlee Zrudlo
Chronic fatigue has taught me to love and accept myself
At some point in my adolescence, I stopped thinking I was worth it. I believed that I was too sensitive, too much, too sick, too frequently injured, etc. So I just stopped caring about myself. I learned to ignore and push past my needs. I felt very lonely and sad and I really didn’t knowContinue reading “Chronic fatigue has taught me to love and accept myself”
Disappointment
Disappointment – a poem Note from me: I wrote this poem a few months ago and I’d been wondering where I saved it! Well, I found it this morning, and lo and behold, it has a similar feel to the one I published yesterday about Rage. I can feel how much easier it is forContinue reading “Disappointment”
RAGE
RAGE – a poem Rage. It burns under my skin. It fills up my throat and threatens to erupt in screams. Rage. It wants me to yell, scream, swear and throw things. Rage. It makes me feel powerful enough that I can breathe flames and roar so the whole world can hear me. Rage. ItContinue reading “RAGE”
How a total lunar eclipse helped me
I have chronic fatigue syndrome and anxiety, but I also have a huge heart, a cute innocence about the way I interact with the world, a love of swearing, a tall, strong body and an awakening consciousness that sometimes truly humbles and astounds me. That was a long sentence, but it was needed to showContinue reading “How a total lunar eclipse helped me”
Trusting myself
Sometimes I wonder how I got to be 42 and I’m only now deepening my trust in myself. Other times, I understand exactly how I am at this place. The most important point I’d like to make is that it is a huge accomplishment and blessing that I now trust myself. After a lifetime ofContinue reading “Trusting myself”
When I “should” myself instead of going with joy
I mentioned in a previous post that I am off work for 5 weeks. I finally gave myself permission to ask for this leave because I knew I really needed it! I am incredibly grateful to have been supported in my request for this type of leave (leave with income averaging). This time off hasContinue reading “When I “should” myself instead of going with joy”
Notes to myself at 4am
Do you ever wake up in the early morning hours and feel like you need to spend time with yourself? That happens to me every now and then. I usually don’t mind it because I feel like it’s the universe giving me a little nudge to discover what my heart, mind and body want toContinue reading “Notes to myself at 4am”
Inspiration from nature
Lately I have been looking at nature to be inspired. Sometimes I don’t even try to find inspiration, it’s more like the beauty in nature is calling to me, asking me to be present and witness its beauty. Whenever this happens, I feel renewed, awakened and more alive. I make a special effort to breatheContinue reading “Inspiration from nature”
How a drag show gave me the boost I needed
On Saturday, I had the absolute pleasure to attend a drag show in Kemptville that was put on by North Grenville Pride. I almost didn’t go…I was so tired last week and I was feeling much more anxious than usual. I had pretty much already decided not to go, but then a whisper within meContinue reading “How a drag show gave me the boost I needed”
PhD in Being Me 