Poetry – PhD in Being Me

Hard times

Things have been tough for me lately. Over the past few months, I have been learning more about trauma, the major impact it’s had on me, and how it is the root of so much of my struggles. I have been at low points in my life, but none have felt quite so low asContinue reading “Hard times”

Reaching across

I am reaching Reaching across my inner divideTo the one who feels so unsafe and so unlovedBut I see I have been reaching in the wrong direction I have been doing so much to control my environment to keep myself safeAnd I have been talking nicely and kindly to myselfBut in this moment, I seeContinue reading “Reaching across”

Deeper

Deeper – A self-care poem Sometimes I catch myself trying to accomplish something when I’m feelinglostsadconfused oroverwhelmed. Most of the time, the temporary high I get from accomplishing something is very fleeting andleads me to want to accomplish something else. I honestly had no idea that I was running away from myself when I wasContinue reading “Deeper”

When I write – a poem

When I write Sometimes, when I write, the wisest and steadiest parts of me have something to shareAnd it uplifts and inspires me. Other times, the most traumatized and fractured parts of meHave something to sayAnd it’s painfulDifficultAnd hardBut what they share is no less wise.In fact, those feelings help me learn how to moreContinue reading “When I write – a poem”

So Beautiful – a poem

So Beautiful This dance of pain, exhaustion, joy and loveIs so so beautifulHow could I trade the way I am and the ways I experience lifeWhen it leads to such depth of feeling?The love I feel in my heart for humanity this morning is so preciousSo all encompassing, pure and full of tendernessAnd yet theContinue reading “So Beautiful – a poem”

Sitting with disappointment – a poem

Sitting with disappointment Here I am.Disappointed.I know disappointment is a part of life.I know that others will disappoint meAnd I will disappoint them.It doesn’t make it any easier when I’m feeling disappointed though.So here I am.Disappointed and writing about it.Writing about it helps me to be with my disappointment.To keep it company and to letContinue reading “Sitting with disappointment – a poem”

Welcome into my heart

I have a big, caring heart I love sharing my heart with others and inviting them in to sit at my heart’s warm hearth To rejuvenate, restore, be filled up so I can hold space for them This is who I am at my core A big, caring, welcoming heart who wants to share herContinue reading “Welcome into my heart”

Trying – a poem

I am so tired of trying. Trying to make life work with a limited amount of energy. Trying to make healthy choices so i dont get worse. Trying at work, at home and with friends and family, and everywhere else. Trying is exhausting. Today i surrender to who i am, to my reality and toContinue reading “Trying – a poem”

Inflammation – a poem

I feel inflamed The linings of my blood vessels, organs, brain and tissues Are swollen And I feel anger, irritation and sadness flowing through my body I want to rage, avoid it and yell But in truth, I think it is just here Begging to be loved Begging to be felt, honored and held withContinue reading “Inflammation – a poem”

Bullied – a poem

It brings a big smile to my heart to say that I’m sharing this poem below in honour of my friend Niveen. We just reconnected recently and she inspired me to share this poem. In talking to her, I shared how my poems come to life, and I’d like to share that with you too.Continue reading “Bullied – a poem”