Disappointment – a poem Note from me: I wrote this poem a few months ago and I’d been wondering where I saved it! Well, I found it this morning, and lo and behold, it has a similar feel to the one I published yesterday about Rage. I can feel how much easier it is forContinue reading “Disappointment”
Author Archives: Bradlee Zrudlo
RAGE
RAGE – a poem Rage. It burns under my skin. It fills up my throat and threatens to erupt in screams. Rage. It wants me to yell, scream, swear and throw things. Rage. It makes me feel powerful enough that I can breathe flames and roar so the whole world can hear me. Rage. ItContinue reading “RAGE”
How a total lunar eclipse helped me
I have chronic fatigue syndrome and anxiety, but I also have a huge heart, a cute innocence about the way I interact with the world, a love of swearing, a tall, strong body and an awakening consciousness that sometimes truly humbles and astounds me. That was a long sentence, but it was needed to showContinue reading “How a total lunar eclipse helped me”
Trusting myself
Sometimes I wonder how I got to be 42 and I’m only now deepening my trust in myself. Other times, I understand exactly how I am at this place. The most important point I’d like to make is that it is a huge accomplishment and blessing that I now trust myself. After a lifetime ofContinue reading “Trusting myself”
When I “should” myself instead of going with joy
I mentioned in a previous post that I am off work for 5 weeks. I finally gave myself permission to ask for this leave because I knew I really needed it! I am incredibly grateful to have been supported in my request for this type of leave (leave with income averaging). This time off hasContinue reading “When I “should” myself instead of going with joy”
Notes to myself at 4am
Do you ever wake up in the early morning hours and feel like you need to spend time with yourself? That happens to me every now and then. I usually don’t mind it because I feel like it’s the universe giving me a little nudge to discover what my heart, mind and body want toContinue reading “Notes to myself at 4am”
Inspiration from nature
Lately I have been looking at nature to be inspired. Sometimes I don’t even try to find inspiration, it’s more like the beauty in nature is calling to me, asking me to be present and witness its beauty. Whenever this happens, I feel renewed, awakened and more alive. I make a special effort to breatheContinue reading “Inspiration from nature”
How a drag show gave me the boost I needed
On Saturday, I had the absolute pleasure to attend a drag show in Kemptville that was put on by North Grenville Pride. I almost didn’t go…I was so tired last week and I was feeling much more anxious than usual. I had pretty much already decided not to go, but then a whisper within meContinue reading “How a drag show gave me the boost I needed”
The Whole Spectrum of Me
Lately I have been more acutely aware of how there is a lot more to me than I thought. I have been using the imagery of our solar system and all of the planets orbiting around the sun to help me. When I am lost in thoughts and am overwhelmed, I feel like I amContinue reading “The Whole Spectrum of Me”
Messages in the wind
I live in Kemptville, Ontario, Canada and right now, it is fall. Fall is such a gorgeous season. It’s a time when our trees explode into gorgeous bright colors, almost like a celebration before the depth of slumber during winter. I love fall. It’s a time of transition, of nature celebrating her glory and beautyContinue reading “Messages in the wind”
PhD in Being Me 