Category Archives: Chronic fatigue syndrome

What If?

What if? I asked myself that question this morning.  What if it’s okay to struggle?  What if it’s okay to have chronic fatigue syndrome that can be deeply debilitating?  What if it’s okay that I have been having a hard time these last several years? After all, what am I other than a human being,Continue reading “What If?”

Changing Expectations

Well, it’s nearly the end of 2024, and I have  deep thoughts to share as the year comes to a close. I grew up at a time where success in life looked a certain way, and I recently realized how much I was holding myself to those societal expectations. As a person with a disability,Continue reading “Changing Expectations”

Witnessing myself

Sometimes I feel lonely. Sometimes I feel like I wish I could be seen more deeply and completely. Sometimes I feel so tired it’s hard to do much. Sometimes I feel like my being is surrounded by mist and I need the sun to rise more to transform it. Today feels joyous and celebratory, butContinue reading “Witnessing myself”

Inspiration

I find it important lately to find inspiration from all possible sources.  I have been worn down by circumstances in my life, and I have felt how dysregulated my nervous system is and how truly exhausted I have been in all aspects of my being. I have taken several months off work to take betterContinue reading “Inspiration”

Rejoicing and Grieving

Rejoicing and grieving. Two seemingly opposing feelings, and yet, I have felt them both most of the week. I wonder if that is how a birch tree feels? It is always growing, yet shedding its bark. I learn a lot from nature. It is always teaching me how to relate to myself more kindly andContinue reading “Rejoicing and Grieving”

The burden I carry

I have become more aware of the emotional wounds I have lately. Over the last several years, I have often felt very heavy, tired and weighed down. It’s like I am carrying a heavy load that is made up of all the past hurts and traumatic events in my life. Some days, I don’t evenContinue reading “The burden I carry”

Done

Sometimes I am done. I have nothing more to give, no more capacity to think things through, or to deal with differing opinions constructively or compassionately. When I am in this place, I rest. When cookies are finished baking, there is no point in keeping them in the oven because they’ll just burn. With people,Continue reading “Done”

Empathy is my super power

The other day, I was having a conversation at work, and I said some very wise words that helped me to know that empathy is my superpower. We were talking about some people who seem superhuman because they can work 16 hour days for long periods of time. My colleague seemed like they were judgingContinue reading “Empathy is my super power”

Snails are slow, and sometimes, so am I

I love snails. I often pick them up off the road and place them on the plants on the side of the road. I love watching how slowly and deliberately they move along a plant or the ground. They bring their homes wherever they go, and they seem to enjoy taking their time to getContinue reading “Snails are slow, and sometimes, so am I”