I wrote the words below in May 2019. I often wrote emails to myself, to try to sort out my feelings. Sometimes I find that easier than writing in a journal. I am so humbled to read these words, there I was, so broken after my mom had suddenly died a few months later, butContinue reading “Who am I waiting for?”
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Destroyed
I wrote this poem in May 2021. I remember sitting and talking to someone as these realizations hit me and I knew I was witnessing my own destruction. I remember writing this and feeling soothed and knowing that I was okay, even as I was being destroyed. I remember knowing that everything, including me, wasContinue reading “Destroyed”
Beyond the Breaking Point
In my previous post, I wrote about being at the breaking point. It was a post overflowing with the rawness of emotion I was experiencing at the time. Writing that post gave me courage to be with myself when I was so angry, disappointed and violated. It helped me understand that I didn’t need toContinue reading “Beyond the Breaking Point”
My humanness is divine
I wrote this poem in 2016-2017. I was having a really hard time bridging what I was learning about spirituality and what I hated about myself. It was through writing this poem and a few others that I realized I was resenting my “humanness” and was trying to rise above it. As I wrote thisContinue reading “My humanness is divine”
Reaching in, Reaching out
Reaching in, reaching out I see an image of me reaching in. Reaching inwards to the depths of my being, reaching to find myself. I feel myself stirring, awakening and stretching. I hear the giant yawn that slowly turns into a growl, then grows louder And louder Until it roars with the joy of itsContinue reading “Reaching in, Reaching out”
Emergence
I wrote this poem in 2016 or so. It is very special to me, as it very beautifully describes how I learned to turn around within myself to find me. No preamble or explanation can really set the stage better than the poem itself. May it inspire you to further emergence of your most wonderfulContinue reading “Emergence”
Ambassadors
From 2015 to 2018, I was so deeply inspired by the massive spiritual and personal growth I was going through. I would often just be making a meal, sitting, or working and then I would be filled with some words that I just had to type out very quickly. As I understand it now, theContinue reading “Ambassadors”
How I Feel is Nobody’s Fault
For as long as I can remember, I haven’t taken responsibility for how I feel. I have blamed or resented other people, thinking it was their fault I was mad, sad, disempowered, or overwhelmed. I have related to life as a victim for a very long time. I even remember writing in my diary inContinue reading “How I Feel is Nobody’s Fault”
Overwhelmed and angry
I have really been enjoying feeling angry in the last month. I have a complicated relationship with anger…I used to shove it down….I used to be scared of what I would do if I got angry, so I wouldn’t let myself even feel it. The problem is that it was fermenting and boiling inside ofContinue reading “Overwhelmed and angry”
How a total lunar eclipse helped me
I have chronic fatigue syndrome and anxiety, but I also have a huge heart, a cute innocence about the way I interact with the world, a love of swearing, a tall, strong body and an awakening consciousness that sometimes truly humbles and astounds me. That was a long sentence, but it was needed to showContinue reading “How a total lunar eclipse helped me”
PhD in Being Me 