Getting older

I am different lately.  Turning 46 has been a big one for me.  I am no longer a young person, I am closer to 50 than to 40, and I can  tell that I view life differently than the youth I am around.  My skin looks more wrinkly, my face looks older, and my bodyContinue reading “Getting older”

What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome

It’s hard to explain just how exhausting it is to have chronic fatigue syndrome.  It’s taken me years to really and truly understand that rest doesn’t cure this type of exhaustion.  It is much deeper than a lack of rest.  It is an exhaustion down to the cellular and soul levels.  Before I get muchContinue reading “What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome”

Taking the pressure off

Honestly, have you ever seen a more relaxed dog?  Archie is such a sweet cutie pie.  I love this photo of him.  It’s not the best photo of Robbin and I, but it sure showcases how relaxed, happy and at ease he is. Archie teaches me and reminds me to take the pressure off myself. Continue reading “Taking the pressure off”

My new true north

My inner compass has been re-oriented. My focus re-directed. My heart opened and filled with what’s been right in front of me all along. Here I am, right here, where I have always been. My life is not behind me, ahead of me or just around the corner.  It is right here, right now. EveryContinue reading “My new true north”

Moving towards discomfort

Moving towards the uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, emotions, pains and everything else inside of me is bold.  It’s amazing.  It’s the opposite of what I had done for so so many years, and it’s the opposite of what we’re encouraged to do in North America. For years now, I’ve learned various different approaches to my physicalContinue reading “Moving towards discomfort”

Reflecting on 2025

It’s the last day of 2025 for me, and I can’t help but think, “wow, this is the last time I’m going to eat lunch in 2025,” and “this is my last day in 2025, I’d love to make sure I enjoy the little moments.” Transitioning to a new year feels like a big dealContinue reading “Reflecting on 2025”

For all the times I wanted to say no but couldn’t

Flames make me feel powerful and like I have a choice.  I have so much power buried within me, because for so long I couldn’t use my voice and power.  If I did, I was unsafe, so I learned to keep it down as a coping strategy.  The more I learn about trauma and howContinue reading “For all the times I wanted to say no but couldn’t”

Building up my inner resources

In the last year, I have been learning the concept of “resourcing.”  The way I understand it, resourcing is a way of building up your inner resources of reserves through doing things that nourish you and replenish you.  I started really delving into making resourcing art after I started working with an incredibly wonderful andContinue reading “Building up my inner resources”

Writing for expression

I have recently learned about the value of writing out the tough feelings I have, without limits or censoring, and then ripping it up. I was a bit skeptical at first, but there is something so freeing about writing with no limits until my hand hurts, and feeling all the emotion pouring out onto theContinue reading “Writing for expression”

I am here, and I am with myself

I am here, and I am with myself 💕.  I feel so soothed whenever I say to myself, “I am here and I am with you.”  Sometimes, I even cry, like a part of me has just really needed to hear that, and it allows any stuck emotions or stress to release and flow. I amContinue reading “I am here, and I am with myself”