What If?

What if? I asked myself that question this morning.  What if it’s okay to struggle?  What if it’s okay to have chronic fatigue syndrome that can be deeply debilitating?  What if it’s okay that I have been having a hard time these last several years? After all, what am I other than a human being,Continue reading “What If?”

A pause

The older I have gotten (I am 44), the more I am giving myself permission to pause.  A pause can mean many things, including: Am I an expert at pausing?  Sometimes, and sometimes I rush and feel so much pressure that a pause is the last thing I think about.  Learning about me from myContinue reading “A pause”

Overwhelmed by my own needs

Yesterday I heard the title of this post inside of me, and I silently agreed with it.  It is a sad thing to be overwhelmed by my own needs, so I did the following things: It felt great to take some pressure off of myself and to settle more deeply into being me, just asContinue reading “Overwhelmed by my own needs”

Getting caught up

As an empath, it is easy for me to get caught up in the feelings someone brings to their interactions with me. Recently, I have been temporarily overwhelmed by the intensity of what I am feeling, and it’s like I am stuck in a maze of those feelings. Sometimes for hours, or even a dayContinue reading “Getting caught up”

Done

Sometimes I am done. I have nothing more to give, no more capacity to think things through, or to deal with differing opinions constructively or compassionately. When I am in this place, I rest. When cookies are finished baking, there is no point in keeping them in the oven because they’ll just burn. With people,Continue reading “Done”

Breathing in and actually letting it out

Today feels like the kind of day where I need to remember to breathe in and out. To be with the rhythm of my breath, to breathe in, feel everything that is uncomfortable and actually breathe it out. As I have written before, I am learning to be inspired by nature. Over the past fewContinue reading “Breathing in and actually letting it out”

Phases of life: micro versus macro

I am working towards getting a PhD in Being Me, and that means learning about myself, noticing what I am feeling, and adjusting as necessary. Lately, I have really started to understand that I go through phases where I have a micro or a macro focus. I used some images above to try to illustrateContinue reading “Phases of life: micro versus macro”

Snails are slow, and sometimes, so am I

I love snails. I often pick them up off the road and place them on the plants on the side of the road. I love watching how slowly and deliberately they move along a plant or the ground. They bring their homes wherever they go, and they seem to enjoy taking their time to getContinue reading “Snails are slow, and sometimes, so am I”