It’s hard to explain just how exhausting it is to have chronic fatigue syndrome. It’s taken me years to really and truly understand that rest doesn’t cure this type of exhaustion. It is much deeper than a lack of rest. It is an exhaustion down to the cellular and soul levels. Before I get muchContinue reading “What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome”
Category Archives: PhD Curriculum
Holding space
Well, here I am. I really feel like writing, and celebrating the desire to write. I went for a cold, sunny sky walk with the dogs and I was filled with so much love and possibilities. I was given an opportunity to see the extent of the possibilities of my life in spite of myContinue reading “Holding space”
Needing translation
Through art therapy, I’ve been learning how to translate my feelings into art. Doing this makes them much less scary, and more understandable. It’s also helped me feel more compassion for myself. Today, I felt, saw and located a certain emotion in my body. It was very intense and one I have suppressed for aContinue reading “Needing translation”
Feeling connected
Last week, I felt deeply connected to humanity, the planet, and life itself. I could sense the web of connectedness that links us all together, no matter where we live, and it was profound. I hadn’t felt that connection in quite some time. I remember feeling like that quite often for a few years, andContinue reading “Feeling connected”
Being here
If you’ve visited my blog before, you may know that I’m working on getting a PhD in Being Me. What does getting a PhD in Being Me mean these days while I am off work to take care of my physical and mental health? It means: May this post inspire you to give yourself aContinue reading “Being here”
A pause
The older I have gotten (I am 44), the more I am giving myself permission to pause. A pause can mean many things, including: Am I an expert at pausing? Sometimes, and sometimes I rush and feel so much pressure that a pause is the last thing I think about. Learning about me from myContinue reading “A pause”
Helping others and myself
I really like helping others. I also really like helping myself and giving myself care, compassion, and gentleness. Life has felt hard lately, probably because it has been really tough. When times are like that, I feel myself rising to the challenge and other times, I feel myself getting smaller and in need of timeContinue reading “Helping others and myself”
When I write – a poem
When I write Sometimes, when I write, the wisest and steadiest parts of me have something to shareAnd it uplifts and inspires me. Other times, the most traumatized and fractured parts of meHave something to sayAnd it’s painfulDifficultAnd hardBut what they share is no less wise.In fact, those feelings help me learn how to moreContinue reading “When I write – a poem”
Under the ice
Last week, I wrote a post that had me full of inspiration. I was feeling like I had been in a metaphorical block of ice and I was enjoying the process of melting. I was feeling free, energized and whole, and it was glorious. But, the melting didn’t stop there. Instead, I started feeling moreContinue reading “Under the ice”
Getting caught up
As an empath, it is easy for me to get caught up in the feelings someone brings to their interactions with me. Recently, I have been temporarily overwhelmed by the intensity of what I am feeling, and it’s like I am stuck in a maze of those feelings. Sometimes for hours, or even a dayContinue reading “Getting caught up”
PhD in Being Me 