The older I have gotten (I am 44), the more I am giving myself permission to pause. A pause can mean many things, including: Am I an expert at pausing? Sometimes, and sometimes I rush and feel so much pressure that a pause is the last thing I think about. Learning about me from myContinue reading “A pause”
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Witnessing myself
Sometimes I feel lonely. Sometimes I feel like I wish I could be seen more deeply and completely. Sometimes I feel so tired it’s hard to do much. Sometimes I feel like my being is surrounded by mist and I need the sun to rise more to transform it. Today feels joyous and celebratory, butContinue reading “Witnessing myself”
Inspiration
I find it important lately to find inspiration from all possible sources. I have been worn down by circumstances in my life, and I have felt how dysregulated my nervous system is and how truly exhausted I have been in all aspects of my being. I have taken several months off work to take betterContinue reading “Inspiration”
Hard times
Things have been tough for me lately. Over the past few months, I have been learning more about trauma, the major impact it’s had on me, and how it is the root of so much of my struggles. I have been at low points in my life, but none have felt quite so low asContinue reading “Hard times”
Reconnecting to myself
Sometimes I hear my voice inside me and it’s loud and clear. Other times it’s like there is so much noise from the world that is making it harder to know who I am and where I stand. Today, I went for a walk in the woods and I heard the noise. I felt theContinue reading “Reconnecting to myself”
Sometimes
It is okay to slow down. It is okay to rest. It is okay not to compare oneself to others. It is okay (and a good idea) to smile when feeling down. It is okay to need help, to eat what doesn’t make you feel the best, and to laugh at the irony of life.Continue reading “Sometimes”
Sitting with disappointment – a poem
Sitting with disappointment Here I am.Disappointed.I know disappointment is a part of life.I know that others will disappoint meAnd I will disappoint them.It doesn’t make it any easier when I’m feeling disappointed though.So here I am.Disappointed and writing about it.Writing about it helps me to be with my disappointment.To keep it company and to letContinue reading “Sitting with disappointment – a poem”
The burden I carry
I have become more aware of the emotional wounds I have lately. Over the last several years, I have often felt very heavy, tired and weighed down. It’s like I am carrying a heavy load that is made up of all the past hurts and traumatic events in my life. Some days, I don’t evenContinue reading “The burden I carry”
Under the ice
Last week, I wrote a post that had me full of inspiration. I was feeling like I had been in a metaphorical block of ice and I was enjoying the process of melting. I was feeling free, energized and whole, and it was glorious. But, the melting didn’t stop there. Instead, I started feeling moreContinue reading “Under the ice”
Melting
This morning when I woke up, I thought of melting. I had an image in my mind of me being in an ice block and how I have been thawing out and melting away those layers of hardness and rigidity that I was aware of but couldn’t just push or wish away. It appears IContinue reading “Melting”
PhD in Being Me 