I wrote this poem on February 14, 2019. I remember those days of missing myself, and I still sometimes feel that, although it has a different feeling lately. Like I’ve been missing only certain parts of me that I’m still reclaiming, like my power. I am sharing it with the hope that it inspires anyoneContinue reading “Missing myself”
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Lightning and thunder
Lightning and thunder – a poem These are new feelings for me Crackling and burning under the surface of my skin Anger and rage wanting to burst out through every aspect of my body Exhausted at myself for all the limiting ways I have been relating to life For all the power and strength thatContinue reading “Lightning and thunder”
Numb
I remember itWalking through life emptyA shell of myselfWith no hope for life to be any different I remember the terrible loneliness The sense that everyone else had it figured out but meThe longing to have a purpose and an existence greater than the numbnessBut thinking that was reserved for others I have felt thisContinue reading “Numb”
Garbage on the side of the road
Hurt people hurt people. I have heard that around and in my experience it is also true. I also think hurt people hurt the planet by throwing garbage on the side of the road. I remember many years ago when I believed I was worthless and not precious or a treasure. I remember feeling emptyContinue reading “Garbage on the side of the road”
Lovely things to say to yourself
The dogs woke me up at 4:45am this morning and I was pretty irritated at first. I was amazed how quickly I turned my irritation around by saying lovely things to myself. As I walked down the hall to let them out, I said, “You’re doing such a great job, Bradlee,” and “You are suchContinue reading “Lovely things to say to yourself”
Who am I waiting for?
I wrote the words below in May 2019. I often wrote emails to myself, to try to sort out my feelings. Sometimes I find that easier than writing in a journal. I am so humbled to read these words, there I was, so broken after my mom had suddenly died a few months later, butContinue reading “Who am I waiting for?”
Beyond the Breaking Point
In my previous post, I wrote about being at the breaking point. It was a post overflowing with the rawness of emotion I was experiencing at the time. Writing that post gave me courage to be with myself when I was so angry, disappointed and violated. It helped me understand that I didn’t need toContinue reading “Beyond the Breaking Point”
Literally overflowing with love
Living with chronic fatigue syndrome is sometimes at odds with who I am. I am a big hearted person who loves to connect with others, share hugs, give compassion and acknowledgement and more hugs. Being chronically tired means that I can’t always do that because I don’t have enough physical, energetic or emotional energy toContinue reading “Literally overflowing with love”
Shattered Innocence
Sometimes life is just so disappointing, so much so that one’s heart breaks and it feels like all the good inside has died. This poem is about those types of day. As I wrote it, it felt very sad and angry. As I kept writing, I felt like my shattered innocence was giving me aContinue reading “Shattered Innocence”
Unhinged
Recently something inside of me has opened up. Like there was this part of me I was keeping tucked away, in a locked box. I was just sitting outside in the sun when I realized that not only has the box been opened but it is unhinged. In my haste to open it and rediscoverContinue reading “Unhinged”
PhD in Being Me 