I am different lately. Turning 46 has been a big one for me. I am no longer a young person, I am closer to 50 than to 40, and I can tell that I view life differently than the youth I am around. My skin looks more wrinkly, my face looks older, and my bodyContinue reading “Getting older”
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Letting it all out through allowing
Sometimes I feel the emotional pressure building up inside me, and I feel this urge to flee the pressure and the feelings. Sometimes I distract myself. But sometimes, I am brave and I turn toward it, instead of trying to get rid of it. I have this pressure on the left side of my jawContinue reading “Letting it all out through allowing”
What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome
It’s hard to explain just how exhausting it is to have chronic fatigue syndrome. It’s taken me years to really and truly understand that rest doesn’t cure this type of exhaustion. It is much deeper than a lack of rest. It is an exhaustion down to the cellular and soul levels. Before I get muchContinue reading “What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome”
Looking up and ahead instead of down
At some point during the last several years, I started looking down when I walked to make sure I wouldn’t trip or fall. I have been very delicate and vulnerable mentally and physically so looking down makes sense, even though I have been far from an age where a fall would have been catastrophic. IContinue reading “Looking up and ahead instead of down”
Taking the pressure off
Honestly, have you ever seen a more relaxed dog? Archie is such a sweet cutie pie. I love this photo of him. It’s not the best photo of Robbin and I, but it sure showcases how relaxed, happy and at ease he is. Archie teaches me and reminds me to take the pressure off myself. Continue reading “Taking the pressure off”
Reflecting on 2025
It’s the last day of 2025 for me, and I can’t help but think, “wow, this is the last time I’m going to eat lunch in 2025,” and “this is my last day in 2025, I’d love to make sure I enjoy the little moments.” Transitioning to a new year feels like a big dealContinue reading “Reflecting on 2025”
Writing for expression
I have recently learned about the value of writing out the tough feelings I have, without limits or censoring, and then ripping it up. I was a bit skeptical at first, but there is something so freeing about writing with no limits until my hand hurts, and feeling all the emotion pouring out onto theContinue reading “Writing for expression”
Boundaries
I am exploring boundaries in therapy and in my daily life. I have heard about boundaries a lot over the years, but hadn’t done a big exploration of what they are and aren’t in my life, why I need them and how they can help. So far, I have identified what it feels like when:Continue reading “Boundaries”
Each breath
Lately, I have been wondering more about the purpose of life. The longer I live, 45 years so far, the more I think it is about breathing each breath, being there, as a companion for myself, while I live my life. I have lived through so many moments when I have felt desperately alone orContinue reading “Each breath”
Reflections
It is easy to not feel good sometimes. It is easy to amass all kinds of evidence about my shortcomings, failures and deficiencies. It is much harder, sometimes, to focus on all that is going well and all the good I bring to the world. A few weeks ago, I was sitting by the creekContinue reading “Reflections”
