I am different lately. Turning 46 has been a big one for me. I am no longer a young person, I am closer to 50 than to 40, and I can tell that I view life differently than the youth I am around. My skin looks more wrinkly, my face looks older, and my bodyContinue reading “Getting older”
Author Archives: Bradlee Zrudlo
Letting it all out through allowing
Sometimes I feel the emotional pressure building up inside me, and I feel this urge to flee the pressure and the feelings. Sometimes I distract myself. But sometimes, I am brave and I turn toward it, instead of trying to get rid of it. I have this pressure on the left side of my jawContinue reading “Letting it all out through allowing”
True Self Proclamation
How beautiful is that image! Gosh, I love it! I painted that about a year ago, when I had been processing some big emotions and then I felt so free, like I could say yes to life. I felt like I was falling deeper into life with my arms wide open and the love wasContinue reading “True Self Proclamation”
What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome
It’s hard to explain just how exhausting it is to have chronic fatigue syndrome. It’s taken me years to really and truly understand that rest doesn’t cure this type of exhaustion. It is much deeper than a lack of rest. It is an exhaustion down to the cellular and soul levels. Before I get muchContinue reading “What it feels like (for me) to have chronic fatigue syndrome”
Looking up and ahead instead of down
At some point during the last several years, I started looking down when I walked to make sure I wouldn’t trip or fall. I have been very delicate and vulnerable mentally and physically so looking down makes sense, even though I have been far from an age where a fall would have been catastrophic. IContinue reading “Looking up and ahead instead of down”
Holding space
Well, here I am. I really feel like writing, and celebrating the desire to write. I went for a cold, sunny sky walk with the dogs and I was filled with so much love and possibilities. I was given an opportunity to see the extent of the possibilities of my life in spite of myContinue reading “Holding space”
Taking the pressure off
Honestly, have you ever seen a more relaxed dog? Archie is such a sweet cutie pie. I love this photo of him. It’s not the best photo of Robbin and I, but it sure showcases how relaxed, happy and at ease he is. Archie teaches me and reminds me to take the pressure off myself. Continue reading “Taking the pressure off”
My new true north
My inner compass has been re-oriented. My focus re-directed. My heart opened and filled with what’s been right in front of me all along. Here I am, right here, where I have always been. My life is not behind me, ahead of me or just around the corner. It is right here, right now. EveryContinue reading “My new true north”
It all counts
No matter what your life experience has been or is today, it all counts. And it all matters. You matter. Even if you wish things could have been different or if you’ve just figured out something that has been impacting your whole life, you matter and it all counts as valid life experience. Your lifeContinue reading “It all counts”
Moving towards discomfort
Moving towards the uncomfortable feelings, thoughts, emotions, pains and everything else inside of me is bold. It’s amazing. It’s the opposite of what I had done for so so many years, and it’s the opposite of what we’re encouraged to do in North America. For years now, I’ve learned various different approaches to my physicalContinue reading “Moving towards discomfort”
PhD in Being Me 