Sometimes life is just so disappointing, so much so that one’s heart breaks and it feels like all the good inside has died. This poem is about those types of day. As I wrote it, it felt very sad and angry. As I kept writing, I felt like my shattered innocence was giving me aContinue reading “Shattered Innocence”
Author Archives: Bradlee Zrudlo
Unhinged
Recently something inside of me has opened up. Like there was this part of me I was keeping tucked away, in a locked box. I was just sitting outside in the sun when I realized that not only has the box been opened but it is unhinged. In my haste to open it and rediscoverContinue reading “Unhinged”
At the end
At the end – a poem At the end I am emptied out I am numb I am a shell of myself Is this bad? Is this the true end? Or is this the end of who I used to be? Of how I used to relate to the world? All of this death, theseContinue reading “At the end”
Reaching in, Reaching out
Reaching in, reaching out I see an image of me reaching in. Reaching inwards to the depths of my being, reaching to find myself. I feel myself stirring, awakening and stretching. I hear the giant yawn that slowly turns into a growl, then grows louder And louder Until it roars with the joy of itsContinue reading “Reaching in, Reaching out”
Shedding more than just my skin
Today, I feel like I am a snake who is getting ready to shed my skin. Except that I I don’t want to just shed my skin, I want to shed more. I want to shed my old, victim like ways. I want to shed this safe resting place that I have taken shelter andContinue reading “Shedding more than just my skin”
Shutting down
I shut down sometimes. Sometimes I shut others out. Sometimes it feels like I’m shutting myself out. Shutting down. Is it a healthy coping mechanism? No, I don’t really think so. Is it okay that I do it? Ya, I think so. Sometimes my computer just gets that loading circle right when I’m in theContinue reading “Shutting down”
Emergence
I wrote this poem in 2016 or so. It is very special to me, as it very beautifully describes how I learned to turn around within myself to find me. No preamble or explanation can really set the stage better than the poem itself. May it inspire you to further emergence of your most wonderfulContinue reading “Emergence”
Always blooming
I’ve been sick the past few days and it has helped put things in perspective. Even when I am sick or struggling with the symptoms of chronic fatigue syndrome and anxiety, I am always blooming. Even when I feel like I am taking several steps back, I am always blooming. It’s so easy to getContinue reading “Always blooming”
Finding My Power
I have been scared and intimidated by anger in the past. I have also been wanting to get to know my anger and to create more space for it within me. I have chronic fatigue syndrome. Over the last several years, I have hated myself for it, resented, blamed and berated myself and my bodyContinue reading “Finding My Power”
From Anxiety to Empowerment
I am sensitive, easily stressed and anxious. I am also growing and learning and finding new ways to care for the wonderfully sensitive person I am. As I reflect back on my life, I see how many times I didn’t know I had options. I would just be anxious and sit in that for aContinue reading “From Anxiety to Empowerment”
PhD in Being Me 