A few weeks ago, I wrote about the death of one of our 2 day old baby chicks: https://phdinbeingme.ca/2023/06/02/making-peace-with-suffering/ It really broke my heart to watch her suffering, yet I knew she was teaching me alot. In the video above, I talk about the baby chicks and how they exude innocence and purity. They lookContinue reading “Protecting innocence”
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Cultivating strength through weakness and hardship
Sneak peek: loving video at the end of this post! Since I started getting progressively more tired with chronic fatigue syndrome, I thought I was getting weaker. It can be easy to associate any condition or change in abilities with weakness. I felt the same about how anxious I was getting over the years. ItContinue reading “Cultivating strength through weakness and hardship”
That cynical edge
I wrote this poem in January 2019. I was going through a tough time with my mental and physical health, and there were several other challenges in my personal and professional life. I was learning so much about being an empath and how to thrive despite everything I was feeling. I definitely didn’t feel likeContinue reading “That cynical edge”
Missing myself
I wrote this poem on February 14, 2019. I remember those days of missing myself, and I still sometimes feel that, although it has a different feeling lately. Like I’ve been missing only certain parts of me that I’m still reclaiming, like my power. I am sharing it with the hope that it inspires anyoneContinue reading “Missing myself”
Numb
I remember itWalking through life emptyA shell of myselfWith no hope for life to be any different I remember the terrible loneliness The sense that everyone else had it figured out but meThe longing to have a purpose and an existence greater than the numbnessBut thinking that was reserved for others I have felt thisContinue reading “Numb”
When rest is best
Living with chronic fatigue syndrome can be quite confusing and hard. I remember being a student athlete, working full time and working on a Master’s degree in another city, and other wonderful examples of having energy. I also know that having this medical condition has taught me so much about myself and has given meContinue reading “When rest is best”
Garbage on the side of the road
Hurt people hurt people. I have heard that around and in my experience it is also true. I also think hurt people hurt the planet by throwing garbage on the side of the road. I remember many years ago when I believed I was worthless and not precious or a treasure. I remember feeling emptyContinue reading “Garbage on the side of the road”
Making peace with suffering
A beautiful, tiny, one-day old baby chick named Lillium taught so much about suffering in her time with us. She arrived at 9:15 am on May 31, 2023, and she passed away by 6:30am the next day. We got 7 one-day old baby chicks, and they are all so precious and cute. Baby chicks areContinue reading “Making peace with suffering”
Who am I waiting for?
I wrote the words below in May 2019. I often wrote emails to myself, to try to sort out my feelings. Sometimes I find that easier than writing in a journal. I am so humbled to read these words, there I was, so broken after my mom had suddenly died a few months later, butContinue reading “Who am I waiting for?”
Destroyed
I wrote this poem in May 2021. I remember sitting and talking to someone as these realizations hit me and I knew I was witnessing my own destruction. I remember writing this and feeling soothed and knowing that I was okay, even as I was being destroyed. I remember knowing that everything, including me, wasContinue reading “Destroyed”
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