Reflections

This is my life

I’m 45 years old, nearly 46, and lately I’ve been thinking about how this is my life, right now, as I’m living it. Have you ever thought that? Like you notice that life is happening while you are living it and maybe you’ve not been enjoying it or fully present in it? Or perhaps notContinue reading “This is my life”

Boundaries

I am exploring boundaries in therapy and in my daily life. I have heard about boundaries a lot over the years, but hadn’t done a big exploration of what they are and aren’t in my life, why I need them and how they can help. So far, I have identified what it feels like when:Continue reading “Boundaries”

It is easy to not feel good sometimes. It is easy to amass all kinds of evidence about my shortcomings, failures and deficiencies. It is much harder, sometimes, to focus on all that is going well and all the good I bring to the world. A few weeks ago, I was sitting by the creekContinue reading “Reflections”

Rejoicing and Grieving

Rejoicing and grieving. Two seemingly opposing feelings, and yet, I have felt them both most of the week. I wonder if that is how a birch tree feels? It is always growing, yet shedding its bark. I learn a lot from nature. It is always teaching me how to relate to myself more kindly andContinue reading “Rejoicing and Grieving”

A Compassionate Speaker

I had dreams of becoming a motivational speaker for the last several years. I could see myself on a stage, talking to people, and sharing love, compassion, funny stories and the deep, messy and rawness of being a human. This afternoon though, I realized that my dreams have changed. I no longer want to beContinue reading “A Compassionate Speaker”

Changing landscapes

Today is the last day of 2023, and I am feeling self-reflective. I have long wanted to write about how the view outside of my front window changes depending on the time of day and the weather and season. The photo above is from early in the morning last week. I awoke to a warmContinue reading “Changing landscapes”

Meeting myself where I am at

It’s been over a month since my last post. That’s the longest I have gone without writing. In truth, I missed it. In reality, I needed to meet myself where I have been at, and take some steps towards greater self-care. How does one even go about meeting oneself where they’re at? In my experience,Continue reading “Meeting myself where I am at”

Cultivating strength through weakness and hardship

Sneak peek: loving video at the end of this post! Since I started getting progressively more tired with chronic fatigue syndrome, I thought I was getting weaker. It can be easy to associate any condition or change in abilities with weakness. I felt the same about how anxious I was getting over the years. ItContinue reading “Cultivating strength through weakness and hardship”

Being motivated by guilt

Garbage on the side of the road

Hurt people hurt people. I have heard that around and in my experience it is also true. I also think hurt people hurt the planet by throwing garbage on the side of the road. I remember many years ago when I believed I was worthless and not precious or a treasure. I remember feeling emptyContinue reading “Garbage on the side of the road”